BURR.

Everything is grand.... well not really, but it sounds better when you sugar coat. I'm a bit unsatisfied but I thug it out 'cause that's just me. "When life gives you lemons, make beef stew!" (-Andy Milonakis) On a positive note, a much needed break for the winter has arrived. I have a couple weeks to marinate and get loose. I have a pretty amount of hours at work so I wont get to be lazy like I want, but the money is what im in need of, 'cause funds are dirt LOW! I'm almost ashamed of how much money I spent and how little I have to show for it. Christmas gifts are looking scarce around here, i'm like the broke grinch. UPDATE: I turned 18 on 12/16, i'm often being asked how it feels? It feels like 16, but whatevvv. "Forever Young" be da theme song like Jigga say.


xoxo,
Tj

Sexy..much..?

Nowadays. . .

I woke up today and felt truely blessed. (sounds like bullsh*t huh? "aww Tj dont get all godly and hipocritical on us", lol don't worry I wont). I am enjoying my life and i'm so very satisfied. None the less, things continue to happen in my life that I am totally urked by but i've grown to realize that those are the pieces to my puzzle, and if one of those pieces were to be absent, my puzzle wouldn't be complete now would it? it's good to think of life that way, loosely. I try not to be such a pessimist anymore. Something hit me in English class hella early in the day... the quote i came up on was something like, "Things turn out best for those who make the best of things" (or some crap like that), and it kind of clicked.
Updates: remember I couldnt get a job to save my last pair of panties? Now i've got two. It's hectic because I still have no wheels, and im bumming rides from everyone, lol. I'm trying so hard to stay on my grind because it didn't come easy for me. I also go to school still, blah (barely). That's a big hardship right about now. I just feel like so much is going on and it just takes everything out of me to set foot on campus. My whole mood changes when I get there, haha its sooo wack. I think we call it "senior-itis", but whatevvv. I am trying SO HARD to keep my eyes on the prize, failure is not an option at all. On a better note, My 18th birthday is 12/16. It's rapidly approaching, took it long enough. My sixteenth feels like just yesterday, WOW. Two years and 15 pounds came and went. This is definitely my turning point. WARNING.
And, as far as leisure time goes, the romance department is pretty copastetic. It's funny when you get someone new. I'm that little girl on christmas that got a new barbie. It's shiny and new, dolled up (and for some reason, so much better than last year's), or better yet it's like an artist when they start that new canvas. They tend to stare at it alil too much before they make a move, full of ideas they try to keep them under control, being careful not to mess it up on the first try, saying to themselves, "This is the one". Life is pretty breezy nowadays, not too shabby.

Realization.

I can truly understand how a person can be thankful for everyone that has came in close contact, or that's had a single encounter with them and their life long enough to make a difference, whether positive or negative. With every person i've been friends with, been in "love" with, been in like with, or just plain ole thought they were good company & good convo, i've gotten one step closer to finding myself, as a whole. No matter how ridiculous or extraordinary they were, I can say that I look back and remember how I felt, how I reacted to certain situations, how I should've behaved, how much of a moron or bitch I was, how cool I was, e.t.c, e.t.c. I want anyone & everyone that knows me personally, met me formally or informally, knows who I am... to know I appreciate them.(Quick thoughts)

Peace & Progress,
Tj.

Wake me up when summer ends.

Unlike most, I believe summer is good while it lasts, but i'm more the type to be anticipant for the fall season. I get to kind of brush my shoulders off and put all the bullshit on the back burner & all the fake friends/boyfriends that only hang out with you when y'all aint got shit better to do or want what I got (well I stay putting 'em off the team). For me, it symbolizes a fresh start, and I like to stay on my grind as far as the schooling. Moms told me I could do home studies this year as a result of my productivity, so I'll be stacking cheese I guess. I'm aiming to be a graduate in the spring semester, if I stay on my grind. That's a plot, mos-def. I guess making moves in a better direction makes me see all i'm capable of achieving (anything), and i'm in a rush to grow up in that sense ONLY. I'm glad to see that all my bro's/hoes are doing their thing.. Big up's to Marissa, we're gonna make it away from these rain clouds soon babygirl. My boy Omari, you're the man and I hope the blessings come in abundance..you're doing your thing, Can't knock the hustle. Hugh, ily, I'll never stop being proud of you, and your new car smell wont ever wear off me, nah mean? For those I know that think they're doing more than they really are, stay humble, lol. I'll keep that at an anonymous level, but good luck in all you do.


Peace & Progress,
Tj.

BOW!

Im listening to gucci mane, iFeel like a trapper & stuff, lol. I had a long day-6hrs of work and such, mad tired, etc. I work tomorrow too, but i'm off just in time for fun, like always. This ish aint so bad, im making money. It feels good, but iNeed to learn how to manage it still. It's s000 hot man, that kinda kills my mood and makes me lazy. Plus, I have a mean pregnant mom here when I get home, BUMMER. My little brother is due in September, meanwhile my li'l sister is running around giving me gray hairs, haha. update: Ya girl will be whipping, amen. I hope walking/bussing to school is over for good! A car makes the day so much easier, many can feel me when I say that...in other news, Mr. Augustine is coming back to me for a lil bit in August, so thats something nice & positive, y@y.

Peace & Progress,
Tj.

lesbi-honest.

I couldn't have said it better myself. I have high respect for people that are confident within themselves. Took the words right outta my mouth:

lesbi-honest.

Amen to that!

It's been quite a while since i've posted, couple weeks or so, im aware of that. I've been mad busy, but not busy enough to stay out the loop. (I've been skimming through everyone elses blogs, but haven't been posting). . . so what's the news? Anyone who talks to me on the daily knows how much i'd ragg on myself about not having a j-o-b, well I got it, and have been kinda m.i.a. As of now, i've been working 3-4 days a week, pretty solid hours. I went to summerschool for a week, couldnt handle it, I just felt sweaty, stupid, and broke. . . dropped it. On a better note, I've been having an abundance of fun. Things on the daily have been lookin' up for me. I was hoping that the summer season would bring a change, and i'm satisfied. Can I get an "amen!" ? So much shit has happened that blogging was kinda like that awkward silence that everyone hates in a conversation (ya know. . when do u say something? and what do you say?) I'm back off hiatus.

I had the most pleasant, most wonderful chipotle experience eva, pahaha.

funny ass convo, haha:

me (10:25:00 PM): whats goin on?
xxxx (10:25:16 PM): ok like im goin 2 grad nite
xxxx (10:25:23 PM): nd im takin sum1 wit me
xxxx (10:25:47 PM): nd like we used 2 tlk wayyyyy bakk
xxxx (10:25:51 PM): but then stopped
xxxx (10:26:17 PM): nd now like uh i asked if she wanted 2 go as my guest 2 grad nite nd she said yea
xxxx (10:26:34 PM): but i thnk i wanna start tlkin 2 her again but i dnt noe how lol
me (10:26:53 PM): so whats the conflict?
xxxx (10:27:51 PM): idk if i shud pursue tlkin 2 her again
xxxx (10:27:59 PM): lol im kinda slow i guess =/
xxxx (10:28:29 PM): basically i want her 2 know im trynna tlk 2 her without lookin like a jackass
me (10:29:28 PM): just tell her you like her
me (10:30:04 PM): chicks act like they wanna move at a turtle's pace, but most likely they're waiting for you to be straight foreward
xxxx (10:30:43 PM): hmmmm
me (10:31:29 PM): yup
xxxx (10:31:44 PM): confusing
xxxx (10:31:50 PM): X/
me (10:32:25 PM): yeah, the opposite sex makes the world go 'round pal
xxxx (10:32:34 PM): lol
me (10:32:38 PM): can't live w/ 'em, cant live w/o 'em
xxxx (10:33:12 PM): yea but that makes tlkin 2 them so much fascinating
me (10:33:31 PM): damn right
xxxx (10:33:44 PM): lol

Panties?

This week of school felt like two! *phew*, I'm so happy it's the weekend! We did have a sweet ass field trip yesterday tho, lol. Go cart riding resulted in me waking up to sore thighs & a sore ass, which always sucks. I'm walking on pins & needles. School will be over within a couple of weeks! I'm student of the year, my family is proud of me. I'm starting to get back up.. I hopped off the "unfulfilled" bandwagon. I guess when I think of how good most things are actually going, I weed out the things/people that suck. I'm not happy bitching & complaining. I'm gonna stop expecting so much of things and just go with the flow. I'm gonna stop expecting so much of people and focus on myself & my situations. I'm gonna stop bullshitting with a lot of people.. losers that aint about nothing, that wanna hang out and shit, smh. From now on, I think i'm only hanging out with people that make me happy, and i'm pretty happy with what i've got as of now *cheese*. I took another one of my infamous "chances" (as I like to call it). I-D-K what I was thinking, but i'm anxious to see what happens (I wont reveal)... But if I wasn't spontaneous, I wouldn't quite be myself *wink wink*. Summer's coming up, I can hardly wait. It's grind-time.

this makes "jerking" look wack, right? lmfao. i'm ashamed, and I dont even know them.

Wow, my day turned out way different than expected, on a positive note tho. fortunately for me, the people at the hiring event rescheduled so I didn't have to go on that mission. If I had, I wouldn't have had as much fun as I did today. Thank god for good people. I had a sudden spritz of spontaneity and hooked up w/ my boy Marz, rather "plotted" *coff coff*, lol. Fat shouts to MArz! We had donuts and did the whole melrose thing. He bought my favorite pizza from tomato pie, we had a chill time, and laffed it up.

I had quite the weekend, it was awesome. I re-met an old friend, still the same connection after all these years. it wasn't as awkward as I thought it would be. I can say i'm pretty beach'd out. I've been to the beach enough this weekend to last me..... another weekend, haha. Fun can sort of mask the unhappiness sometimes, I love that.

I'm pretty much in a funk, but I've been trying to be as optimistic as I can be, because i'm blessed and I know it could be a whole lot worse. To trip on the petty things should be the least of my worries, but it hurts. It kind of hurts when the people that tell you they're gonna be down 4 you, for life.. aren't there. All you have left is shallow conversation, and your connection is wearing thin, or rather dwindling on a string that could break at anytime. They're always down to hang out, but they don't REALLY care. You feel me? Then moms asking me "Where is __________? Damn, what happened?" lol. Theres always at least one time of year I go m.i.a for a while. It happens when whatever i'm doing, and people around me just become unfulfilling. Then everyone's like "Damn, where's Tj?". I'm pretty much about to be on my money. Mommy says "That's the best medicine". I'll see what happens.

In other news, it's memorial day morning, HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY. I'm about to head to redondo beach, NOT FOR FUN, or remembrance, but for a hiring event at this place, smh. Anything worth having, is worth working for (or trying, in my case). What do I have to lose? Wish me luck.

XoXo, Tj.

P.s:
Thanks to my readers.
I really like how people tell me they read up & 'listen' to me, in a sense.

"CLOSURE"

noun, verb

1. the act of closing; the state of being closed.
2. a bringing to an end; conclusion.
3. something that closes or shuts

"Two Words"

Ryan Leslie-Rutgers in the rain

On me, I have dreams about this guy singing in the rain, lol.
This is dope. Risking a cold: that's passion tho, lol.

"Friday night, just got paid.."

I hung out with my girls.. we were so cute, haha. I was a bit skeptical to go out lastnight, I don't much do the Friday night thing, i'm more of a Saturday gal, but i'm so glad I went. Nothing went wrong. Nobody flaked, I wasn't left stranded, I didn't lose anything, I didn't get into a fight w/ anyone, and I was probably the only one completely sober so I stayed laughing. I'd say it was an A+ night. I seen a bunch of old friends, met some new ones to fux with, I got home around 2am, no pictures :-X

Happy Mother's Day to all

I hope everyone got to spend time or at least talk to their ma's. You never know how much time you have to make her feel loved before it's too late, TRUST, I know quite a few that wish they could chill with their's. R.I.P to all the homie's who's moms passed away. I find myself saying I "hate my mom" all the time when she pisses me off, but this lady grinds and sacrifices for me daily, and I don't know what I would do without her.

Happy Saturday

It's real pretty outside, I'm gonna enjoy it. I wont let anybody or anything ruin this day for me. Today I'm going dirt-biking with my boy, and then to Hallmark to get mother's/nana's day stuff. For what recently happened, I'd say i'm pretty solid, and for that reason, I can say that i'm progressing as a person. I don't feel the need to talk reckless, or dry diss. A wise-man said "to trust no one is to trust everyone equally", that's what i've always lived by. Make sense?

xoxo,
Tj.


P.S:

My readers/followers should contact me more often,
check the links above.

A bit drastic, right?

If it aint broke, don't fix it. I mean, I could give two fucks about hair, it grows, but DAMN, ease it on us right? Don't go from jet black to piss blonde, or lovely locks to bald eagle. Now we have Brittany Spears & Hulk Hogan's wife, smh.

.Thoughts
.Bikes
.Euphoria
.Slurpees
.Afros
.iPods
.Smiles :)

But the weekend has not yet ended. It's Sunday afternoon and I was kind of debating on whether I wanted to spend it responsibly working on my Malcolm X paper, or hopping on the bus and doing my everyday traveling.. *sigh* I kind of made a decision, when I put my pants on a few minutes ago, lol. Gotta live a little.



Peace & Progress...

Self-Image

...means alot in today's society, well society period.

I would say i'm an average young lady, i'm not the ugliest, nor the flyest, but where my looks are lacking, I have intelligence to pick up the slack. I'm comfortable saying that because it's true.

Confession: Sometimes, I feel like im not pretty because I dont have fake hair & fake nails. I'm a nail biter, and getting my hair pressed isn't really my cup of tea, I just do it... because... idk?

I'm not the slimmest, the thickest, or the most glamorous, but I like getting glitzy just as much as the next girl.

I'd much rather wear some hightop J's, a nice pair of denim, and a hellz bellz tee than something from forever 21, although I do it anyway for the simple fact that it's expected of me, and it probably is more flattering.

I conform to everything I shouldn't, and I feel like a hipocrite when I tell my friends how beautiful they are with curly hair and no make-up but I do the opposite, because I don't think that look is flattering on me. I fall somewhere in the "in-between zone" in every aspect, and mediocracy is wack. Let's hope I find myself before it's too late, smack me if I don't.

While I was plotting on this post, I took some pictures of how I look "all natural". I don't wanna be a self-hater.. blah.

Let it marinate.

M & T, sittin' in a tree, L-A-F-F-I-N-G

This is the only person right now that I can say truly fulfills me, in the humor department. She can always manage to pull the idiot outta me, and make me act SO ignorant lol. They say laughing is the best medicine.

I'd have to agree.

"eh..eh..eh..eh..OWWW!"

Re-cap.

whoa, I haven't partied as much as i did from Wednesday to Saturday in months. I spent time with my extended family, my ace boon Cathy and our little cousin Alyssa tagged along (14yrs old but we didnt tell anyone :-X lol). Sinclaire celebrated a birthday! isn't it a blessing? Birthdays are special, they aren't promised. Am i a hipocrite? i'm somewhat of a hip-hop conniseur, but I jerks my butt off, no jokes liiiiike.. lol. I was dancing in cowboy boots, and it don't look pretty. I'm at home now tho, and I must admit it feels kinda foreign. I don't even wanna be here! I've gotten into the habit of being out, and i'm a home body usually.. but ahhh wthell it's spring break. I'm enjoying myself. My head WILL be back into the books crucially, i'm on a good path. I was tempted many ways within these couple of days (no comment) but I have to think about what i'm feeling, *sigh*. Happy Easter to all.. i'll be at Baldwin Hills park tomorrow bbq & softball w/ my folks. Come on by.



Peace & Love.

p.s... lack of posts right? my bad..
I peeped that :-X lol

Can't Stop The Prophet

Classic Shit.. in a real way

Babs Bunny

Guys like this make the America great

"Stay Up"

This is comedy. When I seen a snippet of it on MTV, I laffed like hell. Kanye looks so nasty :-X


http://www.coolkidveezy.blogspot.com/

What's Good?

Well, last Sunday, I was about to blog.. then my mom started acting bitch-ass, so I called myself "saving it as a draft", some sequence of events led me to get grounded (release date unknown). I haven't gotten to get on the p.c., the crackberry, 'nunna dat'.. it's a pretty sad case.
but....


i'm a thug.

here's the old post, just for kicks:


"My weekend started as a dissapointment. All I could count on to make it a blast was Rissa. Friday was w.e. Saturday I was in l.a. with my folks, had a nice outing. mom's and I looked at some places to stay, we wanna move. Once evening time rolled around, shit wasn't so solid, like DAMN, I was dissapointed, the people we were supposed to go function with brushed us the fuck off, then asked for directions to the joint (LOL, we laffed about it all night like DAMN, word?) soooo.. whatta you do when life gives you lemons? have a ball! and, that's what we did. Today, Sunday, I can say i'm pretty satisfied with the way it all went down. I seen my nana, chilled with my favorite girl, hit some corners, popped some tags, took a couple puffs, laffed hysterically at ev-ery-fuckin-thing. Now THAT'S the way life should be. I think my week will be a breeze, i'm in a cool mood."


As for now, if you havent been able to contact me, i'm aight. I came home and my mom wasn't here, for once in her life, like a fucking bloodhound, so I imediately rushed on. Shoutout to all my niggas! (as if im in the pen, haha)


No Bitch-ass-ness.
Keep It Solid.

HAPPY 17th & Anniversary (Lol)

I guess I could call Bogart a legit part of my crew nowadays. My guy's bestfriend & My Bestfriend's boyfriend (I'll give you a second to register that one, lol). He's an awesome dude, i've known him a couple months. My new-found perspective on birthdays is that we should celebrate every year we get, I mean, it isn't guaranteed, and it's a beautiful thing to be alive and well. Let's stop worrying about being babies and be happy that we aren't old bags, we're youthful and have our whole lives ahead. I must say, I am lowkey (highkey) bitter that this nigga got some wheels, i'm JEALOUS, lol. But, if anyone deserves it, it's him, he's great... and i'll be in that joint :-) Marissa made him cuppie cakes, pahaha. She almost had a nervous breakdown.

Parent-HOOD

My friend Lorenzo has to be "father of the year" in my book. A young dude with a kid that takes responsibilty, and is a GREAT example of what loving a child and caring is all about. Alot of y'all cats needa step ya game up. Much love to my bro Zo. Not to mention, it's so damn cute! Lol. I'm proud of you.

Obscenery

My weekend..

A blur..

(A good blur)..

I have everyone in my life

that I need.. and it just set in.

My life is pretty euphoric.

My grades are excellent.

I could brag about them all day,

im the biggest fuck-up you knew (past tense).

I seen my first "Cirque De Soleil" play;

it was awesome.

I've been getting my share of culture, im not yet full.

My money's been steady,

"Niggas is eatin".

My mom agreed to pay off my debt

to 'THE MAN' so that I can get my license haha.

Shit is breezy, no complaints/troubles from the emo-girl.

well, except for the question that remains "WTF am I gonna

do with my future?"

but fuck it, i'll count the chickens when they hatch, nahmean?

Lately, i've been so happy, it's been like "FUCK A BLOG"..

oh shiyett.. I forgot to mention my Ethiopian curls..

it looks like I have no hair.. I secretly wanna be bald,

but that wouldnt be very flattering now would it?

I hate hair, lol.

I'mma keep it like this for a while.

XOXO,

Tj.

Good Girl Gone BAD, haha

the real story of Chris Brown and Rihanna’s fight from a highly placed source in the Chris Brown's legal camp:

They were in the car leaving the Clive Davis party. While Chris was driving, he got a phone call from a young lady. Our source tells us that Rihanna knew that Chris had been messing around with this particular girl and she has, as of late, been the reason for many of their heated arguments. Rihanna got a glimpse of the phone, saw the name and number and immediately recognized who it was. She went ballistic and began to “beat the sh*t” out of Chris (while driving). She was so uncontrollable, that Chris began to fight back in self defense, which ensued the fight. Rihanna’s rage stemmed from Chris’ questionable fidelity in the last few months. Chris Brown has boarded a private plane headed to the East Coast. The move comes less than 24 hours after Brown was released on $50,000 bond for allegedly assaulting Miss Ri-Ri. Now aint that about a BITCH? lol.

cred:http://www.bossip.com/

Asher & Ryan

These dudes are so charismatic & original, like a breath of fresh air.. They're madd talented in my opinion. And, ANYONE that knows me, knows my kindergarten crush for Ryan is overboard, lmao. But, do I care? I think not.

My Loves *sigh*

Matters of the Heart

The ones that think with their minds live happily & make all the right decisions. Then, there's me, who always chose heart over mind, and me, always more likely to be displeased and unsatisfied, or bruised in the end. With that being said and acknowledged, why does it still feel like there's no doubt in my mind that my heart wont fail me in the end? The world is so cold. I am still left in the rain, standing with my heart clenched, in disbelief and denial, telling myself I made all the right decisions,even if I am quite positive I didn't. I could never be disloyal to myself, even if I am to be alone and heartsick. I might be hard-headed, a little dumb, but I refuse to be Numb. So I dont have a conscience, I dont deliberate or dilemma, I let my heart weigh it out.

"Arab, get 'cha boyfriend"

"Now THAT'S some rich nigga shit!"

"It happens.."

(A little late on the post.. well alot.. whatevvv.)

Friday-





"Sorry Ma' I had ta do it!"

Saturday-

My baby sister turned terrible 2! wonderful little shindig
At "the place a kid can be a kid".. poppin.

These would totally be our mug-shots, lol.

Suday-

"DO IT AGAIN!"

My weekend was bitchin'. I was with all the right people at all the right times.

Marissa and I hung out with Mr. Lavish & his folks. That whole night was awesome, crucial, righteous, and full of laughter-- from Bogart's antics, and Lav's malarchy, all the way to Dirt McGirt's outward outburt's: "I'm'a shit on that bitch chest!" and, "I wish a muthafucka WOUUULD touch MAH shit!" Lol.

Shit, B.Allen even had us crackin' up after the tire blew out (another story): "Tha only reason why I came to tha movies is cause 'E' said he was gon pay 4me.. these niggas call me like 'nigga where you at?' now look where da FUCK we at" Lol. It was so sad that it was hillarious, you could hear the desperation in his voice, Lol.

Welp, movies--burn't, techno party--burn't, studio--burn't, but I was pretty happy after it was all said and done. ily deej, (let's finish that rubix cube next time haha) & Rissa, that's my Ho'--FORRR sho'.



Peace & Progress,
k bye.


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The Morning After

I love this girl to DEATH. This has to be my new favorite, most def- (Nevermind how shitfaced we look).


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TOTAL PRIZE MONEY=$0.00

I totally lied on the last post, lmao.
but..WHY are people so dumbbbb?
Thats my only entertainment- DUMBASSES!
I just have to share to laughter, LOl.



okay, now i'm done, like FORREALS, FORREALS!

A Special Dedication:

..To my ace boon coon.. Jessica Burbank



I think I MIGHT be done posting for tonight ;]

Obvious differences..

..Between white kids & black ones.. LOOK what he can do, LMAO.
PEEP!

quite the trendsetter.

I wasn't really into the Inaugural Ball, but I must say, Kanye West can even look fine wearing an 80's shag haircut, LMAO. I watched his performance, it was mad energetic and just awesome in my opinion, I like seeing him dance in them tight ass Mr. Bentley suits, lol. He's got quite a presence and charisma you can just feel from Tv Land. I found a pic, but I wanted a picture of his hair at tonight's show dawg! Smh.

Hypebeast forums saying it look like this:

LMAO.


update!

i thought the shit was fly, for the record.. zyaire had it *snatch snatch*

check him out: http://welcometotheswaggatory.blogspot.com

Remember when I was on my "its so colllllllllllllld in the D" spree?
I had to bring it back, because, this was my favorite reaction video,
LMAO, this lady is mad ignorant & hillarious. Thanks for the laffs lovely anonymous!





"All the real niggas gone & the worms left"? DAMN, hardcore. LMFAO.
And on top of that how this nigga get famous?! I can't even knock her hustle mayne! pahaha.. fuck. wait, yeah I can.

"I want that.. I need that.. Can I have that?"

okay.. i snatched it. No lies. I felt it was blogworthy.
Remember the BadBoy reign? SMH. nostalgic.


AYE, I thought they was b.s.'ing Diddy's character, but this guy REALLY do be that hype, LMAO. I guess I never pay attention, it's something we're used to.

"Nigga these is GUCCI"

My Bestfriend

...Loves me to death
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The Good, The Bad, The Ugly

My fucking fish died, R.I.P to "Piss", he was the yellow African Sicclet, I think the other ones are eating off him, YUCK. My mom tried to clean the water by her self, like an idiot, and my lil nigga didn't make it. In the words of a wise man (Big Black): "Its tuff in the streets son!"
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Climb from under your ROCk.

Personally, I think Lykke is FUNKtastic. This chick from Sweden is putting in work. I'd HIT that. Lykke & Kanye supposed to have done a Collab, but that I havent seen.

These are proper, i like the red one's.

"P" was for "Percy"

Aye, wtfuck happened to "Master P"? Lmao.
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Life is like..

a bunch of malarchy has been running through my mind.. its a trip, but
i think like this on the daily..HAHA.

some stuff like:

you know in "spazz" when pharrell says, "I aint no punk bitch iont give ah fuck"
been saying that under my breath all day, lmao. it STICKS.

and, then I thought about what religion I was.. I dont really think im a christian. It sucks to think i'm a poser.. but I often find myself sitting in church thinking "I dont agree with ANY of this.. and im not moved by ANY of this", ya know? ..as my mom sits next to me crying and shit. It really started to matter once I started sociology class, but then again, in some cases, education can drive a person into the crazy-house.

Then.. I started thinking. "I wonder how being a vegetarian would affect my body. I could go through meat withdrawal or something, hahaha".

Later that night.. my mom made me cry, and everytime she breaks my heart in some way or another, I think "I wish I had someone else... like a dad".. Then I thought, "I miss my dad. Those four years of my childhood before he died on me were awesome.. I had all the gear, all the candy, all the attention and affection, and... this void in my heart was non-existant"

This reminds me of him & US in the nineties:



Today in class, my english teacher told me I was culturally literate and that's the key to living.

Peace & Love,
Daddy's little girl

The Great Depression

People come in & out of my life like seasons, does that mean I'm a bad person or do I associate myself with weaklings? I found myself crying tonight about a tough situation, without a person to express myself to, and it really hurt me.

Who do you cry to when you're crying over the person you trust the most? Someone even said "so, whatta you expect me to do about that?" or some weak shit like that. I feel so alone in the world.

My mom says its all a phase, and it shouldn't phase me, but she's an asshole too, so I find it hard to take her advice. My grandma is selfish as fuck, and thinks the world owes her something. Maybe I'm another rotten apple off the tree, or maybe I've yet to find someone that can help me as a person, make me feel like there's always hope, doesn't toy with my emotions, and makes me feel at least HALF complete. I'm fucking tainted over here man, I'm scarred, LOL. I can sorda laff about it, because its so sad.

I always say: The key to emotion is to take nothing serious and it won't bother you, but that theory has failed me yet again, smh--
Blew up in my face, burned my eyebrows & shit!

-Peace
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Sweeeet mother of god

I seen this shit chained in front of my mom's parking spot at LBCC. I looked all hyped tryna take a picture of it, lmao. I just watched in amazementat how people looked at it as they passed by, like they seen Casper the friendly ghost, hahaha. This one dude walked by talking to his homie and was like "Aye, is that shit chained up?" lmao. I like fixed Gears & shit, but personally, I dont know if i like my ass sitting up that high! mm mm.. i'll just stick to my B.C, unless i get one as a gift. *wink wink*

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Just Do It

School started back today, it was chill. I'm a little sad to see it get hectic again. I remember I said I didn't have a new years resolution, and that I was just the way I wanted to be, but I been thinking,I need a j-o-b, on the REAL! Empty pockets aint where its at. I have debt that needs to be payed, so crucial that my driving priveledges are being held by the DMV, smh. I need to get that taken care of and my life will be a breeze.

Peace & Love
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Farewell! ...

...(To my social life). School on Monday. But, in a way, i'm happy, because if I don't stay on my toes w/ the academics, i'll get in one of those "fuck it" moods, and that's never good with me. AH. I had a great Saturday. I went to Venice Beach w/ mister Left Brain. We had a blast. Then walked a jillion miles to the 3rd street promenade, SMH. We seen miss Marz & my pal Toussaint. He gave us rides back to the hood, haha. This guy V is going back to San Fran today *tears* (of joy). I stole his photos, but whats new? I'm not a photographer, just giving you a taste of my fantastic-ness, and that's what life's all about.. isn't it?

Peace & LA-o-v-e

AHAHAHA! okay, i digress...

"WTFUCK. have you seen this?!"

mmkay, so i seen this a few months back, i laffed hysterically then, and the same way when i just watched it again. The killer part is like okay, WHY does she have those low budget extras/family members (LMFAO) in the background doing everything she does wit them fuckin BOOTS on, that is hillariouuuuuuus, and she raps off beat in each verse, names all her dead homies and shit ("Rest in peace to my nigga rae-rae! pookie, d-rock, q-dog, peaches," etc, etc, LMAO)in this soft spoken hood bitch voice but when the hook hits, she's screaming at us and shit ..lol. i watched it twice, just for kicks

cured my blues, LMAO.

Dont I?

Talented guy

This made me think of my grandma.. he's pretty ill for that one. kudos Passion.

HELL YEAH!

I'm rolling with my mom today, running arrands & such, so this nigga pulls up (her friend), and she's talking to him and blah blah.. He tells me to come over there, asks me how I've been and hands me 30 bucks in 1's, and all I could think was "HELL YEAH!" Lmao. That was the highlight of my day, indeed. If that's what I get when someone is interested in my mom, she can do her thing! Lol.

My weekly faves..hands down

"A Beautiful day in the Neighborhood"

You ever just feel bored with life? Well, for me personally, lately, everything in life has been a blur & a bore, or just bad luck period. No excitement, laffs, SHIT. With it being Winter break, i've been getting all the fun out so that I can function in school. I hate repetitively boring things.. I have OCD hahaha sooo.. Today I thought I'd try something different to wash my worries away, needed to be around an unfamiliar face, so I kicked it w/ the homie Vyron. We both agreed that I'd climb from under my rock before this guy returned to San-Fran *sigh*. That decision made my afternoon a pleasant one. I met his folks, played him my own sick ass version of "twinkle twinkle" on his keyboard (LOL), listened to some tunes. We left his pad in search of some GRUB, ended up eating lunch in Leimert, listened to some jazz, it was cool. Soon after, we hooked up w/ his homie, REALLY cool guy by the way, just needed to free his mind. They blew some clouds *wink wink* "put it in da air", lots of laffs. These dudes are sitting there asking eachother: "Aye, why do you get high?", lmao. You had to be live & direct to laff, but you would've. Then I went on my merry way. "Thats a plot!" It's nice to be able to have a good day and not just go to parties and "kickbacks" (not my cup-of-tea), to be with your peeps, there's always an alternative to the norm b.s. Peep his blog: http://layyouout.blogspot.com/





"I'm from L dot A dot Californ-I-A, hot days, got shade, let me take you 'round the way"
-Murs

Good Start

Pierre & I went to the park this afternoon (First time we chilled). I really really enjoyed myself. He's a cool guy. He bought me my favorite snacks from the store so he's a eternally great in my book! We live in the same city, in walking distance, so our friendship should be a breeze w/ eez :)
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