Matters of the Heart

The ones that think with their minds live happily & make all the right decisions. Then, there's me, who always chose heart over mind, and me, always more likely to be displeased and unsatisfied, or bruised in the end. With that being said and acknowledged, why does it still feel like there's no doubt in my mind that my heart wont fail me in the end? The world is so cold. I am still left in the rain, standing with my heart clenched, in disbelief and denial, telling myself I made all the right decisions,even if I am quite positive I didn't. I could never be disloyal to myself, even if I am to be alone and heartsick. I might be hard-headed, a little dumb, but I refuse to be Numb. So I dont have a conscience, I dont deliberate or dilemma, I let my heart weigh it out.