BURR.
Everything is grand.... well not really, but it sounds better when you sugar coat. I'm a bit unsatisfied but I thug it out 'cause that's just me. "When life gives you lemons, make beef stew!" (-Andy Milonakis) On a positive note, a much needed break for the winter has arrived. I have a couple weeks to marinate and get loose. I have a pretty amount of hours at work so I wont get to be lazy like I want, but the money is what im in need of, 'cause funds are dirt LOW! I'm almost ashamed of how much money I spent and how little I have to show for it. Christmas gifts are looking scarce around here, i'm like the broke grinch. UPDATE: I turned 18 on 12/16, i'm often being asked how it feels? It feels like 16, but whatevvv. "Forever Young" be da theme song like Jigga say.
xoxo,
Tj
xoxo,
Tj
Nowadays. . .
I woke up today and felt truely blessed. (sounds like bullsh*t huh? "aww Tj dont get all godly and hipocritical on us", lol don't worry I wont). I am enjoying my life and i'm so very satisfied. None the less, things continue to happen in my life that I am totally urked by but i've grown to realize that those are the pieces to my puzzle, and if one of those pieces were to be absent, my puzzle wouldn't be complete now would it? it's good to think of life that way, loosely. I try not to be such a pessimist anymore. Something hit me in English class hella early in the day... the quote i came up on was something like, "Things turn out best for those who make the best of things" (or some crap like that), and it kind of clicked.
Updates: remember I couldnt get a job to save my last pair of panties? Now i've got two. It's hectic because I still have no wheels, and im bumming rides from everyone, lol. I'm trying so hard to stay on my grind because it didn't come easy for me. I also go to school still, blah (barely). That's a big hardship right about now. I just feel like so much is going on and it just takes everything out of me to set foot on campus. My whole mood changes when I get there, haha its sooo wack. I think we call it "senior-itis", but whatevvv. I am trying SO HARD to keep my eyes on the prize, failure is not an option at all. On a better note, My 18th birthday is 12/16. It's rapidly approaching, took it long enough. My sixteenth feels like just yesterday, WOW. Two years and 15 pounds came and went. This is definitely my turning point. WARNING.
And, as far as leisure time goes, the romance department is pretty copastetic. It's funny when you get someone new. I'm that little girl on christmas that got a new barbie. It's shiny and new, dolled up (and for some reason, so much better than last year's), or better yet it's like an artist when they start that new canvas. They tend to stare at it alil too much before they make a move, full of ideas they try to keep them under control, being careful not to mess it up on the first try, saying to themselves, "This is the one". Life is pretty breezy nowadays, not too shabby.
Updates: remember I couldnt get a job to save my last pair of panties? Now i've got two. It's hectic because I still have no wheels, and im bumming rides from everyone, lol. I'm trying so hard to stay on my grind because it didn't come easy for me. I also go to school still, blah (barely). That's a big hardship right about now. I just feel like so much is going on and it just takes everything out of me to set foot on campus. My whole mood changes when I get there, haha its sooo wack. I think we call it "senior-itis", but whatevvv. I am trying SO HARD to keep my eyes on the prize, failure is not an option at all. On a better note, My 18th birthday is 12/16. It's rapidly approaching, took it long enough. My sixteenth feels like just yesterday, WOW. Two years and 15 pounds came and went. This is definitely my turning point. WARNING.
And, as far as leisure time goes, the romance department is pretty copastetic. It's funny when you get someone new. I'm that little girl on christmas that got a new barbie. It's shiny and new, dolled up (and for some reason, so much better than last year's), or better yet it's like an artist when they start that new canvas. They tend to stare at it alil too much before they make a move, full of ideas they try to keep them under control, being careful not to mess it up on the first try, saying to themselves, "This is the one". Life is pretty breezy nowadays, not too shabby.
Realization.
I can truly understand how a person can be thankful for everyone that has came in close contact, or that's had a single encounter with them and their life long enough to make a difference, whether positive or negative. With every person i've been friends with, been in "love" with, been in like with, or just plain ole thought they were good company & good convo, i've gotten one step closer to finding myself, as a whole. No matter how ridiculous or extraordinary they were, I can say that I look back and remember how I felt, how I reacted to certain situations, how I should've behaved, how much of a moron or bitch I was, how cool I was, e.t.c, e.t.c. I want anyone & everyone that knows me personally, met me formally or informally, knows who I am... to know I appreciate them.(Quick thoughts)
Peace & Progress,
Tj.
Peace & Progress,
Tj.
Wake me up when summer ends.
Unlike most, I believe summer is good while it lasts, but i'm more the type to be anticipant for the fall season. I get to kind of brush my shoulders off and put all the bullshit on the back burner & all the fake friends/boyfriends that only hang out with you when y'all aint got shit better to do or want what I got (well I stay putting 'em off the team). For me, it symbolizes a fresh start, and I like to stay on my grind as far as the schooling. Moms told me I could do home studies this year as a result of my productivity, so I'll be stacking cheese I guess. I'm aiming to be a graduate in the spring semester, if I stay on my grind. That's a plot, mos-def. I guess making moves in a better direction makes me see all i'm capable of achieving (anything), and i'm in a rush to grow up in that sense ONLY. I'm glad to see that all my bro's/hoes are doing their thing.. Big up's to Marissa, we're gonna make it away from these rain clouds soon babygirl. My boy Omari, you're the man and I hope the blessings come in abundance..you're doing your thing, Can't knock the hustle. Hugh, ily, I'll never stop being proud of you, and your new car smell wont ever wear off me, nah mean? For those I know that think they're doing more than they really are, stay humble, lol. I'll keep that at an anonymous level, but good luck in all you do.
Peace & Progress,
Tj.
Peace & Progress,
Tj.
BOW!
Im listening to gucci mane, iFeel like a trapper & stuff, lol. I had a long day-6hrs of work and such, mad tired, etc. I work tomorrow too, but i'm off just in time for fun, like always. This ish aint so bad, im making money. It feels good, but iNeed to learn how to manage it still. It's s000 hot man, that kinda kills my mood and makes me lazy. Plus, I have a mean pregnant mom here when I get home, BUMMER. My little brother is due in September, meanwhile my li'l sister is running around giving me gray hairs, haha. update: Ya girl will be whipping, amen. I hope walking/bussing to school is over for good! A car makes the day so much easier, many can feel me when I say that...in other news, Mr. Augustine is coming back to me for a lil bit in August, so thats something nice & positive, y@y.
Peace & Progress,
Tj.
Peace & Progress,
Tj.
lesbi-honest.
I couldn't have said it better myself. I have high respect for people that are confident within themselves. Took the words right outta my mouth:
lesbi-honest.
lesbi-honest.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)